Well the biggest thing, as I'm sure you know if you follow me on Twitter or FB or indeed in real life is that we had the baby! A girl! Harriet was born on March 7th at 23:23 and came out a whopping 10lbs! It's no wonder I could hardly walk by the end!
Here she is in all her pink glory.
The birth was amazing. I don't think I ever got round to telling you guys Will's birth story but it was a long, rough ride. This time, however, I was all kinds of in control and had my dream drug free natural birth. Not even gas and air. Can I get a whoooooooooooop whoooooooooop???!
So, as you can imagine, I was left on a pretty large high afterwards. I was (and still am) very, very proud of myself.
And then came the crash. Harriet has failed her newborn hearing screening. This doesn't necessarily mean that she is deaf, it could be fluid etc but I heard all those excuses with Will and believed them for months making the crushing truth even harder to hear. So this time I am trying to accept what looks like the inevitable from the start. To add to this we got some results of genetic testing confirming that Will's hearing loss is indeed a result of a genetic syndrome. Enter a whole HEAP of messed up emotions and guilt on top of my fluctuating i just gave birth hormones. Yeah, the crash was big, the birth long forgotten.
For now, things seem to have levelled out and I have stopped randomly bursting into tears (this is not true, but now the tears are about how unbelievable tired I am or knocking over a cup of tea, not about how I have ruined my children's lives). This week was the first week I looked after both kids on my own and truth be told it was much easier that when Daddy was at home or when my Mum was staying. I don't know why but it has been. Of course now Will has a bug and is poorly making it especially hard to divide my attention but why would our lives be simple or God forbid easy? It's just not so.
